Stream Consciousness for my essay

     I must fight for my country. i must, i must, i must. I know that it is right but my family. I dont want to leave them and they dont want me to leave  i would really miss them so i dont know. What if, no dont think that. But what if i die. i couldnt see them ever again and i would miss them so i dont know. I want to fight for my beliefs but, what if i never see them again and what if i am left laying on the battlefield? my family will have to pay for my funeral and burial and they just cant afford that right now. But i must help get rid of slavery. It is mean and cruel to the human race and bad so i must fight.